new year
it's a new year. well, for me, in 10 minutes, the first day of the year will be over.
honestly, i'm not sure i will continue this blog. while it was super helpful in the beginning, there is diminishing returns on self-pity.
in fact, dwelling on the past kind of prevented me from moving forward with my life.
a lot has happened since my last post in november, including my father dying - a man who, while i didn't cut from my life, was incidentally cut from my life when i started getting over his transgressions.
there is a woman i've been chatting with, who has similar traumas, and she won't shut up about self-improvement - complaining about her parents.
i don't want to be like that.
i want to be alive, positive, relaxed. i want a life with someone, and that someone needs me to be the best version of myself.
we all need to be the best versions of ourselves.
happy new year